What Does It Mean to Lose Passion in Life
2025-6-22
"Work till blood becomes paint and money becomes tissue. But not till your soul is consumed by the fire of passion."
How many of you had a had a hobby , a passionate thing. the kind of thing you would love to do for hours. for some , it was swimming , for others it was painting , maybe writing , playing guitar.
Do you remember the hours you spent on your hobby? and do you remember the friends you made by sharing your passion? but more importantly do you remember the last time you did that activity?
for this blog I chose the word "Passion" because it is the most common word that describes the feeling of being passionate about something. a more appropriate word would be "Possession" but that is not the feelings I wanted to talk about.
It becomes soo deeply ingrained in your mind , that the thoughts about it sounds like music to your mind. A comfortable and familiar sound that you can always hear.
this is the feeling that you get when you are passionate about something. you feel like a superhero, like you can excell at your hobby, and you have a sense of purpose.
I'm here to tell you , you are not alone. this blog is a heart to heart about the feeling of dread and pressure society puts on you, the feeling of being a failure, the feeling of not being good enough.
I am in the field of software engineering. for us the graph of getting a job looks like this
and to be honest this is even worse because I am from a developing country. It's hard to live waiting for a time that the work you have put in for years will pay off. the feeling of delayed gratification eats a person from inside. there is nothing that will help you get through this except your passion for the work you do and the positive support you get from your friends and family.
Many people lose this passion in the recourse of time. the feeling is not strong enough to keep you going.
to diagnose this problem, we need to understand what makes you special. And the thing is , only you can answer that question. you fall into the loop of doing the same thing again and again , and when not successful , you try again.
Identifying your unproductive loops requires honesty. Track how you actually spend your time for a week (not how you think you spend it). and yes this includes the programming you do on a daily basis , if you are not getting what you want in life doing something , then do something else.
this being the harsh truth , the soft truth is also that life is just unfair and somethimes you need some more time to fix it , stop blaming yourself for it. give your process of getting over it some time and if not working , find a better loop.
I personally only got good because of my ADHD , but I understood in order to make money doing something like programming is to have understanding on a deeper level than other people have. to experiment , fail faster , yes it feels terrible , but that terrible feeling keeps me going , like a phoenix.
fin.
